Toilet Paper Makes Me Cry?

How weird is it that toilet paper makes me cry?  It just reminds me of Nate because it came from the old house, which is now gone, and had been in his truck, which youngest now drives, so it has Nate's smell.  I know it sound weird, but if you've been with someone day in and day out for over 20 years, you recognize their smell.  I didn't realize it til the boys brought something home from the old house wrapped in a bath towel. I was getting ready to throw it in the wash when for some reason I smelled it.  It smelled like Nate, I hadn't smelled that in a bit over a year and it literally dropped me to my knees and I started crying.  The boys came home and found me laying on the couch with the blue towel wrapped around my shoulders...I tried to explain, they said they understood but does anyone really? So who cares if the toilet paper makes me cry, I'm entitled.